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Want to see You Again

blackdollshoes — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 01:10:28 +0000

It’s not that i forgot to write another message for you.

it’s just i have nothing to say, coz we both know that we miss each other so much

and i don’t want to say it again and again.

I want to see you again.

and feel your palm again.

I keep waiting for you.

I am still listening to your voice.

Thanks for always giving me a call.

It makes me strong and makes me happy.

I have just realized that I may only hear you for now.

thanks for my senses.

I keep praying, and crying to the Lord.

KASI SOBRANG MISS NA KITA.

DI MO LANG ALAM.

TAHIMIK NA LANG AKO.

KASI BAKA DI KO MAKAYA.

SOBRANG KAILANGAN KITA.

KASI MAHAL KITA.

6, 8 , 12

blackdollshoes — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 14:03:40 +0000

I can still remember when I cried.

I can still feel How It felt to be left in the Airport while

my heart is with you.

Can still picture out the first step you took away from me.

and that kissed Goodbye.

Can see you smiling while our hearts are crying.

I remind my memory when you went closer to Your Dada to say Goodbye.

and it’s still fresh in My mind the time you enter that door.

At that point where the last chance to look at you.

It’s been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away.

6,8,12- Brian McKnight

blackdollshoes — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 20:44:36 +0000

December 27, 2011

o4:10 Rainy day morning here in my place. Feeling cold.Feeling empty and missing you.

Time is soon but why can’t i feel it?

04:23 after almost 10 minutes, i can’t think of anything but you. Only you.

Counting days before New Year and I’m wanting to see you more and more each day.

04:31 hanging by the moment. Waiting for your messages. Signal is out and Texting you is no use.

This heavy feeling makes me believe that this love isn’t a joke. I LOVE YOU More Than You’ll ever know.

Time passes by so Fast and i didn’t help noticing that I am Completely Falling for you.

04:42 am I’m wondering if i ever crossed your mind.

And today i’m still happy coz This is God’s another Grace that i’ll be spending my days believing that We Love each other til tomorrow ends.

And knowing that that Tomorrow means Forever.

Christmas Day!

blackdollshoes — Sat, 24 Dec 2011 17:53:04 +0000

December 25, 2011

Dear Ebb,

We may not be together this Christmas. You can’t be home and share Christmas with your family. But I do really hope that you are happy. I hope that you will still be able to enjoy this day in the sea. Sometimes it makes me sad thinking that we are far away from each other but God always give me reason to go on and be strong.

Knowing you is a mystery and Loving you is gift. I wish I can personally Greet you on Christmas, Be with you and Hug you for this day because YOU alone is the Greatest gift God has given me. I am so proud to be your Wife . I just can’t imagine how the world turns and now it’s you and me.

I LOVE YOU. You change my world by looking at it on the other perspective. There’s always a reason to celebrate life with God because everything is made Beautifully for you and me. Let’s pray and thank God for this Wonderful relationship my Dear. He’s always there guiding us and keeping our hearts in touch.

Since it’s Christmas I don’t have any idea how to make you happy and please this very special day! I don’t have any idea how to send a package in ur place. And come up with the idea of sending message in the bottle hahahahha..

The very day i decided to commit myself with you is the one of the best decision i made in my 20 years of existence. I know God has blessed me with such a wonderful person- A BADJAO. Badjao that can make me Smile in an instance. Make me laugh with no hesitation and can make me forgot the way out of cinema with a Kiss. @__@. <3 <3 <3 .

THank You so much because you came in to my life. My Life is so complete. I want to spend my days with you and God. Built our own family and have Kids! We’ll be celebrating many christmas Together. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH…. I MISS YOU SO MUCH..

Love,

Mamie Chin

When Sunset Hits You…

blackdollshoes — Fri, 16 Dec 2011 16:32:53 +0000

Cold water.. Chills me..

Amihan breeze.. touches my face..

Sunlight makes my skin warm..

Traffic steals my time..

and Love is the reason for breathing.

As you sail to the sea,

Feel the water.. even if its cold..

embrace the air.. and feel me..

Value every time you’re killing..

And when Sunset hits you.. remember that I’m here waiting for you.

Love is here.. Waiting for You.. Missing You..

Loving You..

mamie

My name is CHIN

blackdollshoes — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 16:24:23 +0000

My name is Chin and that means Gold, metal and Money. Associated with the tag, maybe i am Hard person.and yet you can find treasure in me.

Yu- means ” jade, happy, pleased and Rain”

What ever it is. CHIN YU means TONIO’S WIFE.

Saved

blackdollshoes — Sat, 10 Dec 2011 19:35:01 +0000

When You Already have spoken the truth and everything that you want to tell a person. The next big thing is to make him feel how much you LOVE him with a challenge of distance. The question is not how to hold his hands, but to touch his heart. Not to make him see that you can handle the situation but rather make him feel that even though you are apart you always work as one.

Now, I long for YOU. I can’t see you or even touch you but you are there. It’s like death. Few days ago I thought I am about to die. I only escape death for I know God saved us and because my vision is working again. But I that night thought I won’t see you again.

But they don’t Understand. They thought I am OKAY. I’m Fine. But I’m NOT Good. I’m badly Hurt inside. I cry. and cry coz I am weak. I might tell you Im okay. But I’m not. right now. and i need you . I badly need you right now.

When i miss you

blackdollshoes — Sun, 04 Dec 2011 05:33:56 +0000

…when i miss you i close my eyes and think you were here

…when i miss you i feel my hand and feel your palm.

…when i miss you i hug my pillow and hope its you

and when i can’t help it. I cry and think of our Happy Memories Together.

I always miss you I just can’t tell you that.

But when I’m alone I wish that you’re just a text away

to save my loneliness.

When You give me a Call. It felt that You’re near.

Voice ended and time to say Goodbye.

I have to stop dreaming and go back to reality that You’re

Miles and miles away from me.

Though It hurts. I’m still blessed that I have you.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..

Pls. Come HOME.

Stay in control

blackdollshoes — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 19:20:47 +0000

When Someone try to lose your cool.

try this.

Think. think of your Family, or yourself , and the consequences of doing something rash.

Take control of yourself. Sometimes you have to stuff your anger and say “I refuse to let him pull me down to his level, He’s Not worth it”

back off from the situation. You don’t have to prove that you are stronger, that you can rise to his challenge.

Breathe a quick prayer. Say ” God help me right now!” And with those five words. You’ll find a peace and a control to keep you in command.

-excerpt from November 30, Today Counts by Harold J. Sala

Where are you?

blackdollshoes — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 15:43:51 +0000

The very person who gives Joy to you. Is also the same person who will bring sorrow to your heart.

How could be it be? The person that you Loved the most, Is also the person who breaks your heart.

The night is full of silence. No one even bother to asked me if iam okay.

They thought I am fine. But they just didn’t know this pain i am feeling inside.

Sometimes I’m trying to act like NUMBED.

But It still shows.

I took a little nap.

and eventually found my self crying under my Pillow.

I hugged it so tight not even noticing that i gave my full strength into it.

I want to see you.

I want to talk to you.

I BADLY NEED YOU.

Where are you?

Numbing my self is useless.

because I know it is still wrong

Acting as if its doesn’t hurt.

It won’t help.

It would just worsen the problem.

I’m trying to Learn how to heal the pain while the wound is still fresh.

Or that just makes me Coward?because I’m afraid to be hurt.

Or should I accept and feel the pain for me to know if it really hurts or it just makes our relationship stronger

And as I write tonight. Heaven knows what i’m feeling inside my heart. It begun to rain even though i saw stars above. Should I go out and kiss the rain? or should I stay and go hug my pillow again?